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Sorry but this will be a rant because I need to vent
My mom is mad at me because my car needed new tires (which it really didnt) and it was 600$
its MY fault.
it's my fault that they decided to buy me a brand new car and people bang it up at school. Its my fault that the tires that I didn't really need cost 600$ that we don't have.
everything in my house hold is MY fault
All the fights are my fault because apparently I'm such a problem
I cause my parents grief and i'm just a problem child
It's my fault that I'm not in a nice college because I didn't try hard enough in high school (okay maybe that is my fault)
It's my fault that my mother is so unhappy.
She expects me to have a full time job, be a full time student and get strait A's as well as clean the house walk the dog everyday for a few miles (because I need it) my room must always be super clean. Maybe that was easier back in her day and I know some people still do it.
But I can't. It's expensive living out here.. I take on hard classes that she can't seem to understand.I have been overwhelmed with homework and trying to keep up with everything. She wants me to quit sculpting because it's getting me nowhere. Thanks mom that really shows me how much you support me. She constantly tells me she will stop supporting me if I don't get my act together. I'm sorry that I'm trying really hard. I'm sorry that I'm terrified of going into animation because I don't want to fail. I'm sorry that I can't constantly do your bidding. Most the time she doesn't ask for much and I do it but sometimes she just starts blaming me for all her problems. Its not enough apparently. I just got a job but that still doesn't please her.
I just really can't take it anymore. I try to be happy and good. I stay at home I hardly go out I don't do drugs and I don't really drink ever. She constantly reminds me I'm 21 but treats me like I'm 5. I just don't know what to do anymore.
She won't admit that I have learning problems, or ADHD, or that I have depression. She thinks getting help is stupid. I have anxiety attacks all the time but she just thinks I'm crazy. Nothing I do will ever please her it seems. I know most the time she's trying to help but she does it in the harshest way :/ I know I shouldn't complain because it could be so much worse :/ It's just hard feeling like I'm constantly being put down or I'm not good enough.
IM ALIVEEEE
WOA!
Hey there DA guys and gals!
I AM NOT DEAD! xD I actually just havent been posting here... like at all. And I apologize for this ;A; you guys were my first fans <3 *hugs all*
ANYWAYS if you want to keep with more of my updates check out my facebook page :D I post a LOT more on there:
https://www.facebook.com/AFairyTaleTreasure
I also have WIP and updates on my INSTAGRAM with silly daily sketches and randomness of my life
my name on there is: dizzydezzi18
So I shall try to post more here but if you really want to keep up with what I'm up to check out those pages :D
ITS A NEW YEAR!
Hey guys! Sorry for the absence! LIFE HAS BEEN SO HECTIC LATELY.
So I feel I must apologize for not being on a lot during the holidays/ after. A lot changed and I became emotionally drained to the point of me just staring up at the ceiling and doing nothing. The more personal reasons were my boyfriend of almost a year (WHICH IS A BIG DEAL FOR ME OKAY ;A; I AM NO GOOD AT THIS) broke up with me because I became "too busy" with life and he didn't feel like a priority. I had been swamped with school and work and even failed one of my finals because I didn't get enough time to make the final project ;A; WHICH THEN COST MY A TO DROP TO A C. So you
I HAVE BEEN ABSENT
ANd i shall continue until finals are over xD
ugh school ;A; only 4 more years to go... ahahha xD
I've been delaying on everything (Which is REALLY BAD since I have a few items to ship) I wasn't able to get to it because ETSY decided to close my shop for a little (I needed to pay my bill but I still hadn't gotten paid from work) so I finally got paid and got that all settled now to ship those things out >w>;
THIS IS WHY I HAVE NO FOLLOWERS D:
I'm awful..
Anyways been slowly working on my christmas things for the christmas fair :D
So far I have a few dragons that include:
steampunk
gingerbread
a water dragon :D
and just some chris
Drawing Commissions
Might start doing them. Not sure xD
I have a weird developing style but I really want to practice it more. I'd really like to get some drawing commissions going (for pretty cheap too lol)
So thoughts? I might upload some stuff soon so peopel can see. Lord knows I'm not expert but we shall see I guess
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Awww hun
Don't let it get you down! I did not have the best of relationships with my own mother while growing up and I can tell you this much, it will pass. So head up! ^.^
Don't let anyone deter you from doing what you love either. I took a big break from art (over 10 years) just to finally now be coming back to it and it is one of my biggest regrets that I did not come back sooner (or even left to begin with).
Everyone may have expectations of what they want you to be, but the only person you have to be is dear wonderful you.
Chin up girl! ^.^
Don't let it get you down! I did not have the best of relationships with my own mother while growing up and I can tell you this much, it will pass. So head up! ^.^
Don't let anyone deter you from doing what you love either. I took a big break from art (over 10 years) just to finally now be coming back to it and it is one of my biggest regrets that I did not come back sooner (or even left to begin with).
Everyone may have expectations of what they want you to be, but the only person you have to be is dear wonderful you.
Chin up girl! ^.^